Kelly Clarkson is owning up to her truth about how she relied on anti-depressants to get through her bitter divorce with ex-husband Brandon Blackstock.
“I looked at my therapist and I just couldn’t stop sobbing, and I was like, ‘I actually had to cancel some of the other day because I couldn’t stop crying. I cannot do this,’” the singer said on the podcast “Las Culturistas.”
“And it was one of those things where I really had to put my pride aside and like all my childhood issues of whatever.”
“I was on Lexapro for like, I think two months,” she explained to hosts Matt Rogers and Bowen Yang.
After seven years of marriage, the “Kelly Clarkson Show” host, 41, filed for divorce from Blackstock in June 2020.
After two years of court fights, the couple — who share daughter River Rose, 9, and son Remington Alexander, 7 — ultimately finalized their divorce in March 2022.
“My thing was, I just can’t smile anymore for America right now. I’m not happy and I need help … and it was honest to God, the greatest decision ever. I wouldn’t have made it without it.”
Clarkson admitted to Apple Music’s Zane Lowe last week that she “did not handle the divorce well.”
“I don’t know how people get through anything like that because I’m not going to say I did it gracefully. Behind closed doors by myself, it was not,” she said, admitting she tried to put on a happy face.
When she knew her ill-fated marriage was dying, the singer said she often found herself “crying so hard” that she “couldn’t even speak.”
Earlier this month, the “American Idol” alum confessed she stayed in her marriage for far longer than she should have because she didn’t want to feel like a failure.
“When you’re in it … I’m like, ‘I can do this,’” Clarkson told host Glennon Doyle on the “We Can Do Hard Things” podcast. “I can handle so much. I can control my actions. I can control my reactions.”
“I can do this and I can reach this person and I can get through. And it becomes a little bit of your ego that gets in the way.”